User blog:JayJaytheJDFan/I do belong here after all.

Hey. I'm back.

I know it's only been about almost 2 months since I took a (short) hiatus from this wiki. I was wondering a lot recently, and...

I miss being in here.

Look, to be honest with all of you, when I joined the wiki, I thought things were okay and good. But later on, I realized I was getting very pessimistic. I kept believing that, everyone in the internet is a monster, and that you don't know what they do outside of the internet. Various websites fed me this type of information, that's when I realized they were wrong. They were just pushing their thoughts on various fandoms to my head and I just listened to them. No matter how ugly and toxic a fandom is, they still have some positive people and events. This came through my head so much that, it caused me to write the blog and point out the toxicity of the fandom, and my personal life. Looking back, today, I cringed at my other blog. The things I wrote down on that blog are seriously exaggerated. I'm not stupid nor dumb, and I actually do fit in with the rest of the wiki. I mean I do have friends that would care, and they do, and I was more or less happy when I found out these fake friends that teased me either moved to another school or got expelled. (The latter is ambiguous, because for two weeks, I didn't see them. It's also speculated, because I didn't get any real info that this happened.) Because of this, this caused my confidence to rise back up. I've tried talking to new people, but my anxiety keeps beating me to it, and it just makes conversations more or less awkward. That and my autism is the only things that are keeping me from talking to new people. It doesn't help that I got a weird and disturbed eye vision that is more or less easily distracting. I've learned that I should be myself and I should branch out to meet and try new things. I want to have a second chance on this wiki, and avoid any negative people or events. I have decided to just take a break from this wiki and resume doing what I like to do: expressing my thoughts and/or speech into comments. I miss doing all of that, and I just want to redeem myself for the new decade.

I actually do belong here.